Hi my friends… the world is so upside down. This past weekend I reflected about the craziness of it all: a solar eclipse, a hurricane and this insane fight all in one week. WHAT??
Maybe it’s the changing of seasons but I just want to write about the joy when you give up control. This is a real thing for me and something that, as I am mindful of it, brings me insane relief and release. I heard the following phrase in a sermon one day and I actually wrote it down on a yellow sticky note… “Everything is not up to me“. This. Yes. What a relief. What a joy knowing that everything is not up to me alone. When we release control in our life we are not giving up agency, we are just opening our hands to God who knows more, can see a little further and has a better idea of what’s going on with us. For me, the release of control came as a direct result of loss and also because of pure decision fatigue. It’s a real thing! Right now, I am just exhausted with making decisions… plus, parenting is like being an umpire 24/7.
All this to say, I came to a point in my life where I realize that there are so many things I simply have no control over and also things that I do have control over… but willingly surrender control for my own peace of mind. Lately, I love allowing friends to make these type of decisions for me, like where we should go out for supper or which movie to watch or even what time to meet and what to eat. Even things like giving my debit card to the girls to go shop for groceries! I know, it sounds a little pathetic writing it out like that but for me it’s an enormous source of joy relinquishing control over these matters right now. It frees my mind up to focus on important issues… it keeps my focus on moving forward. Try it. You might be surprised by how freeing it is. We are so conditioned to control everything around us and frankly, it’s diminishing our hearts and our souls. I love what Paul wrote in 2 Cor 6:11-13 I can’t tell you how much I long for you to enter this wide-open, spacious life. We didn’t fence you in. The smallness you feel comes from within you. Your lives aren’t small, but you’re living them in a small way. I’m speaking as plainly as I can and with great affection. Open up your lives. Live openly and expansively!
For me, this simply means opening my hands and saying to God: I give it all to you. Direct my feet, Change my heart, Infuse my soul with your wisdom… your ways are higher than mine. I will not be confined my small thinking.
Have a wonderful week. Sending you all my love.