I have been here So. Many. Freaking. Times. In the last few years that I can honestly say the feeling is familiar right now. Not knowing what to do is my default. That feeling that you are boxed in form every side. Between a rock and a hard place. No where to go, nothing to do. Yup. Familiar.
Here’s a few things I want to share that made it easier for me.
Ask. I think we all assume that God knows about our situation, so what is asking all about? We also assume that other people would always know exactly what to do. Other people are so smart. They have it all so together. I am the only idiot in this situation and I dont have it together at all. My friend, ASK. Ask God for what you need. In the movie How do you know, there’s a schene where Rheese Whitherspoon asks the Psychologist on her way out of the door for some very general advice on dealing with life in basically any situation… and the guy said this to her: Figure out what you want and ask for it. I have learned that I can ask God anything… from the smallest thing to my biggest dream. I ask Him for wisdom, I tell Him I don’t know what to do. I ask Him to direct my steps. I ask Him to help me make desicions that is hard. I am in a season of asking. 2 Cron 20:10 We’re helpless before this vandal horde ready to attack us. We don’t know what to do; we’re looking to you.”
Believe. He hears you when you call. He takes notice when you speak. He catches all your tears. He records your every word. He listens. He remembers. You are on His mind ALL THE TIME. You are tattooed on His hands. YOU. ISA 30:19 He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry; when He hears it, He will answer you.
Humility. The surest way to know that you have a humble heart is when you ask. A proud heart don’t ask. A humble one do. So, if you are asking for help, you are walking in humility and that in itself carries a great reward. 1 Pet 5: 6 Therefore humble yourselves [demote, lower yourselves in your own estimation] under the mighty hand of God, that in due time He may exalt you. It’s also humbling When you can accept His forgiveness and live your life through His righteousness.
Wait. UGH. NO. Covering my ears right now. We absolutely hate this word. We have no patience with waiting. I know. But the truth is that the answer will come, the path will become clear, the rain will fall, the pain will lift… and it happens in the waiting. Waiting is a beautiful thing all on its own. It matures us, it builds us up from the inside out. It’s our way to show God that we were serious in our asking. It’s God’s way to show us His love for us. It truly is. The quicker we settle down and determine in our hearts that we will wait, the quicker we will find peace in the waiting. My mantra is Psalm 62: 1-2 God, the one and only—I’ll wait as long as he says.
Steps. Lastly, the one thing that I have learned in this time of uncertainty and not knowing what to do is to take baby steps in the direction that my heart would lead me in. I do one little thing every day that will cause me to move in the direction I want to go. Writing this blog post is one such small step for me. Making a call, responding to an email, opening a bank account. Whatever it is for you, you will know and the next thing is to do. Don’t feel that you have to get it all done at once. One day at a time. At times I was so overwhelmed that doing ONE thing was all I could manage. But all those one-things add up to progress in the right direction. For instance, one yoga class lead to more than 300 and 25 pounds lighter over a period of two years. That first yoga class was a baby step and you know what? I still go as often as I can and I am still terrible at it but I love it and I love the patience it’s teaching me.
I think I can write all day long about all this. There’s so much more I want to share. Please know that I am still in my season of asking. I still haven’t gotten it all figured out. I am still wonderfully lost in the journey called life.
Sending you all my love